Life under the stars

Tue, 18 Nov 2008 15:31:22 GMT

Time moves so quickly.

Happy 6 months!
♥

RRrrrrrrr

Wed, 29 Oct 2008 02:06:09 GMT

Comment and I'll give you a letter.
Then you have to list ten things you LOVE that begin with that letter.
Afterward, post this in your journal and give out some letters of your own.

shibbywoo gave me R.

1. Reading
2. Red Baron Pizza
3. Recycling
4. Riding my bike
5. Rock n Roll
6. Regina Spektor
7. Rastafarian colors
8. Ridin' Dirty
9. Reality television
10. Reefer

wow

Wed, 06 Aug 2008 00:14:35 GMT

Life is so good.

Wow.

It's kind of unreal.

:]]]

Tue, 13 May 2008 00:45:31 GMT

AH! These last 2 weekends have been amazing!!!!
Hooray for non-stop party time!
Becca and Tykeya are in town! YAY!
School is basically over and GOD I'm so happy about it.
I'm just happy that I'm finally happy!!!!
:]]]]]

On a sad note,
I MISS BEN WHITNEYBELL!!!! :[[[

Mon, 14 Apr 2008 09:42:07 GMT

DETHKLOK

The Deth Tour

Marquee Theatre , Tempe, AZ
Tue, Jun 10, 2008 06:30 PM

Tickets are only $23.
Finally, I can afford this.

I just about shit my pants when I saw the commercial on Adult Swim.

I guess I'll be postponing my Minnesota trip until after the show.

Oh god I'm so excited!!!!

Today.

Wed, 09 Apr 2008 08:44:53 GMT

Today was perfect.
Just the way an AIMS day should be.

First off,
Wake&Bake Breakfast with April, Kryssi and Heather G.
BOMB.
April can cooook.
<33333

Then Frank picked me up to show me his new peice
and use it of course.
He is beautiful. [The peice]
And at 1:00PM we started smoking.
I just got home,
and I've been with Frank
at Ben's house
with TC, Ben, Renee, Alexia, TJ, and Joey!
and we smoked the whole time.
So I've been smoking for over 12 hours now.

Thats how we seniors do it!!!
'08!!!!
haha

Wonderfullll day.
:]]]]

Christ.

Thu, 28 Feb 2008 05:26:25 GMT

I don't even know whats going on anymore.
It feels like I'm spinning out of control.
First I want this, now that.
I want him, no, he's an ass. Now I love him, again.
Now I don't love him at all and I want someone else,
but of course I can't have him. Just my luck.
Its ridiculous and I want it all to stop!
If only it actually would.

I've been so angry and frustrated lately and it makes me bitter and cold.
It makes me not want to have to deal with anything.
And it doesn't help that all my friends(or the few I have) are always too busy for me.
I mean, it doesn't make me want to shove anything down my throat. No way.
It doesn't make me want to sleep constantly
or not go to school, Never.
Ugh.

I just want it to stop.

Mon, 03 Dec 2007 08:17:47 GMT

The rules:
1) Answer questions and type into google image search
2) Post pictures from first results page

1. Age at next birthday:

2. A place you'd like to travel:

3. Your favorite place:

4. Your favorite objects:

5. Your favorite food:

6. Your favorite animals:

7. Your favorite color:

8. Town where you were born:

9. Town where you now live:

10. Name of a current pet:

11. Name of a past pet:

12. Best friend's nickname:

13. Your screen name/nickname:

14. Your first name:

15. Your middle name:

16. Your last name:

17. Bad habit of yours:

18. First job:

19. Grandmother's name:

20. Your college major:

21. Favorite season:

22. Favorite holiday:

I am an asshole

Sun, 14 Oct 2007 01:43:40 GMT

I am dating a boy I don't want to date.
even though a week ago i liked him
and wanted to be with him.

So I go to Wisconsin/Minnesota
and meet the most perfect guy ever.
He is LITERALLY everything i've ever wanted.
Obviously, he lives in Minnesota
which is a problem because i live in AZ.
DUH

I don't know why
I get myself into these predicaments.
It freaking sucks!

In other news,
I finally found where I want to be.
I have never hated AZ so much.
I LOVE MINNESOTA!!!

annnd....
I got a tattoo.
=D

i just had 3 wierd dreams

Wed, 26 Sep 2007 20:18:09 GMT

One involved Matthew and I living together.
But we still hated each other.
And it was the slow progression of us becoming friends.
And we owned a sandwich shoppe.
It was nice.

The second started out with Kryssi, Justine, Phil, Melissa and KJ.
I didn't know why Kryssi brought Melissa, Justine or Phil
because she knew we weren't friends.
But we walked along a beach,
where KJ and I held hands and had quite a Romantic time.
Then I drove(?) him home and couldn't find the brake pedal
so I couldn't slow down.
Me and KJ were developing a relationship.
Then My family Reunion came.
There are ALOT more of them then I imagined.

This is where dream 3 comes into play.
We were in a random living room
and my mother wanted the band we had hired to play.
Well the band was Age Of Evil.
and they started playing, but it wasn't like they normally do.
It was just odd.
And so, Jordan and I start talking after the set,
and we talk about how he abandoned his Celabacy
to look at porn, and now his computer has a virus.
And of course the whole time we were flirting.
Then he tells me that we need to have sex.
So we do.
It was RIDICULOUS!!!

Does anyone know how to interpret Dreams?

ROAD TRIP!

Tue, 04 Sep 2007 10:18:29 GMT

I don't think I have ever realized all of the beauty that Arizona holds.
Until now.

our sunrise.

grand canyon.

bodies of water.

the valleys.

flagstaff.

jerome.

sedona.

even downtown

sunsets.

and
the cactus.
hahaha

So I've decided that when I get a car, i'm taking a few people on a week long vacation........
without ever leaving Arizona.

It'll be wonderful.
I know that I have taken this state for granted,
and now I want to experience its beauty.

And I won't be going to very many [if any] tourist attractions.
I will find what I think are the best parts of AZ,
and stay there.
No hotels, No campsites, No formal anything.
I plan on sleeping mainly in the car,
and maybe in a tent somewhere.

We will definitely visit:
Flagstaff
Tucson
Phoenix
Jerome
Greer
Show Low
Bisbee
Douglas
Heber
Mammoth
Prescott
McGuireville
Pinetop
Mesa
Strawberry
Queen Creek
Snowflake
Tombstone
Wickenburg
Winslow

and everyplace inbetween.

Soooooo,
who's going with me???
RSVP now!!!!!

Sat, 01 Sep 2007 21:33:13 GMT

1. List seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.
2. Tag seven people to do the same.
3. Do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag whoever wants to do it.

1. I have to fall asleep talking, so at night I pretend there is someone laying next to me. Normally its a boy.
2. I get so bored with my hair that I almost constantly change it.
3. I almost wish I never had sex. Because now I need it all the time, and can never get it.
4. I LOVE meeting new people, but as soon as I do I start to get jealous of all of their close friends for being close with them.
5. I talk WAY to much when I am high, and now I have the feeling that people have no idea what I'm even saying nor do they care. HAH
6. When I dress up (meaning, I actually care about when I'm wearing and how I look) I get really full of myself and act NOTHING like myself.
7. I really love all my friends but I think my love is WAY more than anyone elses. Like I go WAY overboard and take small things to heart way to much. This could be the reason I am so upset now. Hmmm

I tag...Fred, Megan, tyler, becca, seve, chrishaw. i can't think of anyone else.

for those who didn't read my blog

Thu, 23 Aug 2007 04:55:13 GMT

Its funny how a wonderful day can transform itself in to a day where you just want to cry. Normally those days end in frustration and anger, but not today.

7AM- as usual, I woke up and got ready for school; granted it happened an hour earlier than usual, it was still the same ritual. I hopped on the bus listening to Age of Evil (as i do every morning). I got to school and fucked around and then classes flew by due to the half day schedule. then the day was over.

11AM- I went into the choir room to eat lunch (thanks to wonderful amber) and chatted with the peeps. gossip, gossip, laugh, laugh. then everyone left and i talked to miss A. the norm. but i had 3 hours to kill before night school, so after Miss A left for her meeting I started playing through any good peices in our closet. you will never believe what i found.
It was an SATB, accompanied, choral arrangement of BOHEMIAN RHAPSODY!!!!!!!!! you can see why i was so excited. i played through it like a zillion times and i got lost in it. So lost in fact that i looked up and it was 2:25!!!!
night school starts @ 2:30. FUCK
At this point i knew i wasn't going to make it but i had already run hurriedly out of the choir room (and AIR CONDITIONING).
So i opted for exercise and walked down to 7th st. to get drinks and change for phone calls.

2:30PM- walked, bought soda, got change, and called kryssi. No answer. poo.
so i decided to take the green line to 7th ave and make calls from there.

2:50PM-get on bus, get off bus, call kryssi....she is going to go babysit. poo x2
So i call Fred. no answer.
and i call Acacia. no answer.
and i call MattNP. no answer.
used up ALOT of money and time.
poo x3.

3:25PM- i hop back on green line E and get off at central. catch blue line N and get off at camelback.
i figure, maybe Jake or KJ will be at That 70's Shop, since they always are.
and its not like i have anything else to do.
but just my luck.....they weren't.
poo x4.
so i start walking and i walk BACK to 7th st.
at this point i am:
HOT
TIRED
CRANKY
ON THE VERGE OF TEARS
LONLEY
so basically.....no bueno!!!

4:00PM- arrive at 7th st. and sit at the bus stop for a LONG time.

4:30PM- i'm on the bus and i decide i'm going to Coffee. i decide i'll call Acacia ONE MORE TIME once i get to a pay phone, but thats it. (i had finally remembered that Fred had to work :/)
i get off bus, call acacia......
guess what....SHE DOESN"T ANSWER!
big surprise.
poo x5.

4:45PM- *best part of day* this black girl about my age comes up to me and asks me for a dollar. i say i don't have one. and she tells me a story about how she lost her wallet. then she randomly asks me what school i go to. i say north.
her exact quote is: "NORTH?!?!?!?!? REALLY?!?!?!? Nuh uh!!! That crazy. I used to go there too. That school is OFF THE CHAIN!!!"
BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
*best part of day by far*

4:50PM- walk to coffee, remember where justine lives. go to her house to see if she is home. guess my luck.....
SHE WASN'T HOME!

5:00PM- get back to coffee in a TERRIBLE mood, am about to pass out from too much sun and walking and frustration. i'm upset.
but i sit down and write my entire night school paper, read ALOT of my book, listen to jazz, and see David Doughman.

6:20PM- leave coffee in a WONDERFUL mood. and as i walk i notice how beautiful everything is. i know it sounds corny, but look around! there are so many things you never see that are so beautiful!. as i walk back home, i have a more different perspective than i've ever had. this makes me think about all the recent things in life that have made me smile.
-my Dolce dress :)
-laying with KJ in the grass :)
-Jakes face when he laughs :)
- mine and Kryssis dream life :)
-the Jake fist dance :)
-A Nightingale Sang in Berkley Square :)
-my red dress :)
-Mr. Manlove :)
-getting lost in the Alaskan wilderness :)
-"That school is OFF THE CHAIN" :)
-walkin' through the wilderness :)
-Songs For A New World :)
-Gracie :)
-Mister Jackson :)
and many others.
I really got lost in how wonderful life is.
I mean, I hadn't REALLY thought about it.
So, I'm glad nobody answered their phone, i they had, I hever would have made this discovery.
Thank you to everyone who is in my life. You all have made it better that i had ever imagined.
♥:)♥:)♥:)♥:)♥

Maktub.
Indeed.

Tue, 07 Aug 2007 18:13:17 GMT

so i said a couple weeks ago that i had the best weekend of summer.

I WAS WRONG!

this weekend kicked [metal] ass!

First off
the goldbergs was awesome.

buttt

fuckin camping.

Metal
Ch-ch-ch-choode
shu-shu
metalocalypse
hooookkaaaaaa
JOSE CUERVO!!!
rummmm
rim jobs
chopping down trees
glob of shit
shotgun sprite
TAMPICO!
guitar
no more pot...
michael
michael sleeping naked with a knife in his hand
ROXANNE!
lunchables
bukkake on alex
steak and potatoes and biskets and sour cream
painkillers
McDonalds
toy bears burnt face
easy cheese

man that trip was the most amazing one i've ever been on.
I miss being constantly drunk or high or both.
Since i have been for the past like 2 weeks.

and

I want KJ in my pants.
sexxxxxy man indeed.

Yeah,
fuck you period!

METAL

fuckin yeah

Sat, 04 Aug 2007 18:45:57 GMT

i feel so amazing right now.

Last night was the most fun i've had
in just about forever.

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU
Jeremy and Jacob
Your house kicks ass!

I'm meeting so many cool new people.
Alex, Heather, Aaron, Tommy

And getting to know so many more people better.
Garrett, Jordan!, Jacob!, Jeremy!, KJ!!!, Dave Maser, Andrew.

Beer+Pot+davemaserhookahbowls= a fuckin amazing night!
and KJ made it SO much better.
My God that kid is so fucking awesome.
and can he playyy guitar.
i mean holy shit.

and aaron heather and KJ made up this intense song.
oh god it was so good.

i can't believe last night even happened.
i'm wearing a penis/squid shirt right now.
and somewhere near an hour or so from now,
i'll be on my way up to payson with KJ, Jake, and Michael.[and kryssi haha]

FUCKING CAMPING!

you know what?
life kicks ass right now.
i'm gonna go preserve my high/drunk/tired state for as long as possible.
i feel amazing.

life changing song

Thu, 02 Aug 2007 16:13:30 GMT

If I leave here tomorrow
Would you still remember me?
For I must be travelling on, now,
'Cause there's too many places I've got to see.
But, if I stayed here with you, girl,
Things just couldn't be the same.
'Cause I'm as free as a bird now,
And this bird you can not change.
Lord knows, I can't change.

Bye, bye, its been a sweet love.
Though this feeling I can't change.
But please don't take it so badly,
'Cause Lord knows I'm to blame.
But, if I stayed here with you girl,
Things just couldn't be the same.
Cause I'm as free as a bird now,
And this bird you can not change.
Lord knows, I can't change.
Lord help me, I can't change.

Lord, I can't change.
Won't you fly high, free bird, yeah.

[badass guitar solo]

What a night!

My Weekend

Mon, 23 Jul 2007 11:58:42 GMT

So, This weekend was basically
AMAZING

First off-
Drinking is awesome
[btw I still have 2 almost full bottles
of Tequila + Capn. Morgan]
^anyone wanna help me drink em?^

Second-
I LOVE KRYSSI
[endofstory]

Third-
I need to get laid
BADLY

Fourth-
I LOVELOVELOVE AOE(Age Of Evil)
They are so fucking talented!
I mean Jordan sounds like a fucking professional.
Cream in my pants
&&
I've decided I'm officially a groupie w/ Kryssi
cuz we'd totally fuck the whole band
no questions asked
ESPECIALLY Garrett + Jordan
Yummmmm Rock stars

Fifth-
I LOVE POT
and my pot partner Kryssi
[endofstory]

Sixth-
X-files kicks ass
anyone dissagree?
no
[thatswhatIthought]

seventh-
I'm officially addicted to METAL
I just love it, alot
&
I'm so fucking excited for:
-Ozzfest(maybe)
-Manson/Slayer
-and anymore AOE shows in town
!!!!!!!!!!!!

Eighth-
Pete's Fish n Chips=GOD
so cheap
so good
new favorite place to eat?
^I think so^

&&

Ninth-
I love kittens, Missy, Justine, Phil, Fred, Cynthia, Becca, Melissa, Michael, & JAKE!
So basically...
My Friends > Your Face

There's only been ONE bad thing about this weekend:
-I might be unemployed-
![oops]!
whatev

WEEKEND WAS AWESOME

kthxbye

Mon, 02 Jul 2007 12:33:11 GMT

Taken from when me and matthew broke up.
edited for new use of a breakup entry

"it's over.
it's done.

~~i feel like crying every time i say it.~~i only cried when i said it [to him]

~~i wish i wasn't so attached.~~I'm glad I didn't get attached
~~i wish i could get over this easier.~~I'm already over it
~~i wish things were back to normal.~~I'm glad things are back to normal

~~we finally have something in common, my dear.~~
~~maybe~~ i'll start talking to you more.like tonight

~~it sucks that it hurts so bad,~~it doesn't hurt at all
~~but i guess~~I know its better.

since it wasn't going to get any better..."

I feel nice now.
like i don't have to deal with it anymore.
cuz i don't.

FINALLY!

Sun, 01 Jul 2007 10:25:17 GMT

Sometimes, when you just have the worst days,
but then you go out with friends and feel pretty good,
coming home makes you feel worse than anything in the world.

lalalalala

Wed, 27 Jun 2007 02:20:47 GMT

If he doesn't respond or call soon

I'm going to do it anyways.

I am kindof scared....
but i'll man up.

GRRRRRRRR
relationships....

GOD

Thu, 21 Jun 2007 19:46:15 GMT

I am such an asshole.

FuckFuckFuckFuckFuck

Oh God

Wed, 13 Jun 2007 23:04:19 GMT

So on Facebook just now,
you'll never believe who added me.

BEN ROMAN.
lol

and in the section where you say how you know the person,
he actually put something down.
here...I'll quote it...

"You hooked up in 2006 and it was well sort of....."

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahhah!!!!!!!!

wow, it sucks that when i see him again
i totally want him again...
haha

it was a pretty sweet hookup.
...only an hour before me and Matthew started dating.
WOW.

Its good to reminisce.

Sun, 03 Jun 2007 20:44:14 GMT

I don't think life could get ANY better.

WAIT

it could....
but only if i see justine, acacia and phil soon.

AHHHHHHHHHHH LIFE!!!
i ♥ you.

Quotes that have recently made me laugh...ALOT:
"Nigga' my head is THUMPIN!!!!"
"Well, throw up in my asshole then."
"Joe, you got MANGINA'd"

WOW
what a week.

i can just hope the rest of summer is this fucking AMAZING!!!

I AM

Sat, 26 May 2007 22:26:18 GMT

I'm in love.

and it feels ~~wonderful~~ TERRIBLE.

:[♥:[

Sun, 20 May 2007 01:13:39 GMT

Life has been ~~good~~GREAT recently

i can't wait for next week!!!

okay heres the reason i'm excited:
wednesday=LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!!
thursday=graduation!!! ANDDDD....

PIRATES 3 MIDNIGHT SHOWING!!!!!!!

then NO MORE SCHOOL!!!!

FUCKINNNN SUMMER!!!!

and i'm in my new house and its so exciting!
and i've got my pirate boy, whom i love dearly.
this summer will be AMAZING!

you all just have to help me make it amazing.
inform me of any parties
call me if you ever want to hang out
ANYTHING!

♥i love you all♥